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Nicki slept well the whole night after her and Safaree had their text session. Even though she didn’t call him she still contacted him so she felt a little accomplished. Safaree also slept good, he went to sleep thinking about his wife and his baby and how so much just happened in one day. He still couldn’t believe Nicki was pregnant and that she didn’t tell him, but he also felt guilty for his actions that prevented her from telling him.
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Nicki opened her eyes and looked towards the window, it was clear skies and the sun was shining. She sat up in the bed and stretched her arms towards the ceiling, then flopped her arms on the big comforter that she was sleeping under and looked left and right. Once again she had awaken alone in her bed that was made for her and her husband. She didn’t ponder on the thought to long because today was a big day for her and her baby. Today she would be finding out what she has been carrying for the past 4 ½ months. But also her husband would be there and it made her smile. She scooted out of bed and jogged to the bathroom to relieve herself and take her shower.
Nicki got out the shower and stood in the full body mirror examining herself.
“Wow I look so damn different” Nicki whispered to herself running her hands down her body and over her baby bump.
She saw how far her hips had spread, and how thick she had gotten.
“I pray this is water weight lord so it can leave fast just the way it came”
She looked down at her swollen hands and feet and her Carmel skin, then looked at her swollen tummy last and placed a smirk on her face thinking about her child. Nobody messed with her this morning or woke her up so she was at ease and worked at her own pace. But of course martin called its his job to.
“Hello”
“Hey Nick you outta bed?”
“Yes hunny.”
“Good. Remember your doctors appointment is at 1pm. I told Safaree that you would be driving there also and he freaked out so he’s on his way over to pick you up! OK bye.” Martin spoke really fast almost like her was Chinese so Nicki wouldn’t kill him but he hung up before she could ring his neck.
“Bye to you too” Nicki smacked her lips and looked at the phone and threw it down on the bed cussing under her breath
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It was around 11:30 am when Nicki was fully dressed and ready to go. She was very hesitant about calling Safaree because she wasn’t all the way good with him yet. They had just started to communicate. She thought of every other possible way to leave him hanging and just let him come to the doctors instead of picking her up. Nicki was really cute today, she had on some Versace jeans that were tailored to fit her pregnant body with the body band so she could wear them with ease, her all silver LV shoes and a Tiffany’s blue tee shirt. She threw her hair in a very long pony tail, and her baby hairs laid slick by themselves. She tried to wear her wedding ring but her hands were too swollen so she put them on her silver necklace with her engagement rings and put it on. And she wore her studs Safaree had bought her for her birthday. Her baby bump showed perfectly through her tee shirt, and her v-neck exposed her boobs just enough.
“OK let me spray some perfume on and I'm ready, but I gotta wait on this crazy man grrrr! Like seriously I think I'm going to just drive myself and allow his ass to come in a empty house.” Nicki spoke to herself. But little did she know Safaree had came up the stairs waiting on her. He had arrived early because he didn’t know exactly which way to take and he knew his wife would be on some slick stuff. He stood at the door leaning against the door frame listening to her talk to her self
“Oh is that so?”
Nicki jumped from the baritone in his voice coming from across the room. Safaree smiled still leaning against the door frame as Nicki turned around slowly looking across the large room. Nicki grabbed her belly and looked at him wide eyed.
“When did you get in here, you just scared the shit outta me! My heart beating fast and shit.” Nicki said trying to contain herself
“Wait you OK, and I got here like 5 minutes ago. I kinda figured you would be still dressing but I wanted to come early so you wouldn’t drive yourself… And look what your talkin about to yourself.” he started to walk towards her to check on her but she was being stubborn and stopped him in his tracks and said
“Yeah, yeah I'm OK give me a second I gotta catch my breath.”
“Well if you weren't over here plotting against me you wouldn’t be so scared, and why were you trying to drive yourself anyways? What! What you don’t wanna see me?” Safaree said in a goofy tone.
“Because I can do it myself, and I mean… if I didn’t see you I wouldn’t be fucked up about it… I've been doing it for the past 4 ½ months alone, whats another day?” Nicki said in a nonchalant tone, but deep down inside she couldn’t wait tot get to that doctors appointment to see him.
“You know what I'm not even trying to go there with you today, you and them damn hormones!”
“What the fuck you know about my hormones, you’e been back all of 2 seconds and then again you really ain't back.” she said it with a playful attitude
“Why you tryna play the kid dang! I'm starting to think that you don’t want me around” he said catching her playful nonchalant vibe
“Maybe I do, maybe I don’t!” she lifted one eyebrow doing her *idontgiveafuck* smirk
“Man whateva you ready?”
“Yes sir! Let me grab my purse and we are ready. I know I have more paper work to fill out when I get there so bare with me.” she started to move around the room as Safaree stood there watching her. She pasted him and a waft of her Chanel perfume past his nose.
He smiled
“That’s fine Nicki you’re my wife… no need to explain… just hurry I wanna see, and hear my baby.” Nicki smirked but kept moving.
When she gathered everything they headed towards the door and down the steps but before she could make it down the steps Safaree instinctively reached out his hand to grab hers and she almost unconsciously placed her hand in his but she didn’t, she caught her self and held on to the railings.
“Why you pull your hand away?” he said furrowing his brow
“I can do it myself.”
“And…. Why cant I help you?”
“I've gotten use to doing it myself over the past couple of months… I got it, its OK.”
“OK, but just let me help you.”
“No I don’t need your help.” she put her loose hand on her belly. Safarees eyes followed her actions. He couldn’t wait to touch her again, and for it to be normal again
“I know you don’t need it, but just let me help.” he really got frustrated. He wanted to be there but Nicki wasn’t showing any emotions in her face.
“But I don’t want it.” she looked away whining, and he got even more frustrated.
“Fine… whatever do what you want..” he looked down at her belly and then turned and walked down the stairs and waited for her at the car door. He watched her take her time as she waddled down the stairs being careful. He laughed at the site.
Nicki got in the car and he closed her door and walked around to his side and got in. Nicki tried to strap herself in twisting and turning in her seat, but it wouldn’t work. She got mad and just let the seat belt go. She looked up to see Safaree clicking him self in with ease, she through her back against the seat and folded her arms mad because she was big.
“This is so not fare!”
Safaree giggled without saying a word and reached over her to strap her in. His arm brushed across her tummy as he pulled away to grab the steering wheel. Nicki looked down at her hands and then back at him and mumbled.
“Thanks.”
“Mmhhmm. I thought you ain't need my help?”
“Shut up Safaree”
“I mean… I'm just sayin… I mean you said you ain't need my help, then it took you 5 minutes to get down the stairs and all dat.. I mean if you woulda let me help you down the stairs it would took you 2 seconds but you wanted to be on yo Destiny’s Child shit and be miss independent woman and all dat..” Safaree went on a low rant under his breath.
She side eyed him.
“Really Safaree, really? Is that how you personally feel about it? I thought I was suppose to be the one with the hormones, you in ya feelings over there and shit.” she said looking out the window as he started to car and took off. He had some Mary J. Blige bumping low in the car. Nicki got excited when she heard it.
“You know this my jam, and is this where my CD went?” she started to snap her fingers and roll her head with her eyes closed.
“Yeah you left it in here.”
“But I coulda sworn I asked for it back and you said you didn’t have it” she kept enjoying the music.
Safarees phone ring and the ringtone was himself sayin “and all the hoes love me they want my semen.” on repeat. Nicki looked at the phone, then looked at him. At that very moment shit got awkward. Nicki sat back and folded her arms because she knew exactly who it was. Safaree grabbed the phone before it went to voice mail still paying attention the road.
“Talk to me.” he said answering the phone
“Hey how you been? I haven't heard from you in 2 days and I was just checking on you. But I also heard that you were out my way in Florida, what you doing here?”
“I been busy… and you might have heard correctly.” he gave her the cold shoulder.
“Oh so you are here, why didn't you come see me? Your son misses you, you should stop by before you go back to New York. You know we won't see you for another month.” Safarees phone volume was loud and Nicki heard every word. He looked towards Nickis way to see her giving the window the death glare.
“I'll see what I can do, but like I said I'm not here for you.”
“Okay…. But…” but then she got cut off by Nicki talking to Safaree.
“Baby… baby… Safaree! I know you hear me talking to you Baby.” she giggled in her mind but kept a straight face. He looked confused and didn’t answer on time because he wasn’t use to her calling him that anymore. Monica spoke in his ear.
“Who is that?” Monica said with an attitude. Safaree went to answer Nicki but accidentally spoke making it sound like he was answering Monica too.
“huh?”
“I said who the fuck is that?” Monica said with an attitude. But Safaree looked towards Nicki. She heard what Monica said and smirked and said.
“Never mind.” with a grin on her face. She knew exactly what she was doing. He resumed the conversation with Monica.
“Now what did you say?”
“It doesn’t matter.” Monica said. Nicki overheard yet again and played along and said.
“Oh word…. Safaree… daddy?” Monica heard her and asked Safaree again.
“Who is that?” in a nonchalant tone
“Don’t worry about that.” Nicki looked towards him and then sat back and said.
“Yeah don't worry about who I am.” Nicki giggled but in the inside she was hurt. She placed her hands on her belly and looked down caressing it in slow circles trying not to get mad anymore. Today she was going to be happy.
“Oh you go visit her, but you wont come check on your son to see if he’s OK?”
“Let me tell you something… that’s my wife! And you… are my baby’s mama, and you are perfectly fine… I talked to you 2 days ago and with that…” he hung up the phone and put it down and looked Nickis way to see her rubbing her tummy in slow circles. She was now looking out the window with her head leaned against the Ferrari door.
“Why did you do that?” he asked her. She never took her eyes off the window but answered.
“Why did you answer the phone?” everything got quiet. He knew she was pissed off, so
he said nothing else. They drove the rest of the way quiet listening to Mary J. Blige lowly playing in the speakers.
They pulled up to the doctors office and parked the car. Safaree got out and helped Nicki out of the car. They got on the elevator heading to the 10th floor of doctor smiths office, Nicki fixed her t-shirt over her baby bump and made sure her ponytail was neat, Safaree just watched. There were 3 patients in front of them so they had a little bit of a wait. Safaree and Nicki sat down for about 3 minutes until a nurse called Nicki to the desk to fill out some paper work.
“Mrs. Samuels.”
“Yes, hello barb.”
“Hi HB I need for you to fill out this information because today we want to give you the sugar test to see if you have gestational diabetes.”
“Okay babe.” the nurse handed Nicki the papers and she began to fill them out while standing up. Safaree looked to his right watching her every move and watching their surroundings. He became very overprotective at that point because he knew they were in a public environment. He was very low key with some Grey sweat pants and a diamond rosary on and some all white air force ones and a black and white Phillys fitted cap and a white v neck and Gucci cologne. He watched Nicki switch her hips to make herself more comfortable while standing. But he also saw her getting frustrated because she didn’t know something on the papers.
“What the fuck do they mean they want my previous address and my birth certificate number and social too. I don’t remember that shit right now ugh!” Nicki huffed and puffed.
Safaree saw this and got up and walked behind her. When Nicki lifted off of her elbows to stand up straight she felt Safaree behind her. He took the pen out of her hand and reached over her to fill out the rest of the paper work. He put his left arm across her shoulders holding her as he wrote. She took in his cologne missing his smell and strong grip. He looked at her in her eyes and she looked at him and they smirked. He finished up and allowed Nicki to lead the way back to their seats after the nurse told them they will be called really soon.
Nicki sat down and slouched in her seat and closed her eyes and leaned her head back. Safaree watched her breathe and her tummy go up and down in the quiet waiting area, it was only them for the moment. She still hadn’t said anything to him so he figured she was still mad.
There were no bars between them in the seats they sat in. So he zoned out of everything around them and forgot about what went on just a couple minutes before. He placed his hand on Nickis belly and took in the sight. That was everything he wanted, he was so overwhelmed with happiness and satisfaction. Nicki opened her eyes to see Safaree doing this gesture but said nothing. It felt so right to her, and it felt so right to them. They were suppose to be a happy family and not going through the things they were facing.
Safaree rubbed her tummy in slow circles, it felt so good to him he could do that all day if he wanted to. Her belly was firm to his touch, very warm and round, and smooth… that belly was his and he missed his wife so much. As he sat there enjoying himself he smirked and took in a deep breath as his whole hand covered her tummy. Nicki spoke.
“You cute.” he pulled away and smiled at her.
“Why you pull your hand away?”
“Well, I got lost in my thoughts and I just started thinking about our life ad I forgot you
were mad at me. And I thought you were being sarcastic when you said I was cute.” he shoulder shrugged and leaned back in his seat looking away from her.
“No I wasn’t being sarcastic… what? You’ve been away from me that long that you cant decipher when I'm being sarcastic and when I'm not?” she gave him a look, and he looked out of the corner of his eye at her. He looked up to the ceiling readying himself to explain.
“No I…” she cut him off and reached over him, grabbed his hand and placed his hand back on her belly. She kept her hand on top of his as he moved his hand in slow motion across her belly.
Safaree leaned over and placed his head on her tummy as if her were listening. Nicki started to rub his head and smiled while looking at him have his daddy moment. He got butterflies when he did this and listened closely to catch his baby fast heart beat, when he did catch it he spoke.
“Daddy will be home soon. Daddy will be there to take care of you and mommy. I love you both so much and I cant wait to see you and I cant wait for you to get here. I know your going to bring so much joy to me and mommys life. Your one of the greatest blessings that I ever received and I cant wait to treat you like the princess you are. I know you’re a girl, mommy is in denial. I know your going to be just as beautiful as your mother. And you better not give me a hard time, and don’t bring the little boys around either” Nicki laughed at his last comment and Safaree lifted his head.
“Not you threatening the little boys already.”
“Cause daddy don’t play dat shit.” Nicki pops him upside the head
“Don’t be cussing at my daughter.”
“Oh so you claiming it? You claiming it?” Safaree had the biggest grin on his face looking up at Nicki, his hand still remained on her belly unconsciously.
“Shut up Safaree.”
Nicki and Safaree sat there and stared at each other for 2 seconds but it felt like an eternity. They were interrupted by a guy and his pregnant wife walking in the area to take a seat. The guy spoke to Safaree when they made eye contact.
“So I'm guessing this is your first.” Safaree looked up from rubbing Nickis belly in small circles then looked back at it and smiled.
“Something like that man.”
“What?” Nicki said with an attitude. She smacked him upside the head
“Now what you do that for?”
“For being a dumb ass buffoon and yes mister this is his first baby.” Safaree took off his cap and rubbed his head
“You better get use to that, because their hormones get outrageous.” The mans wife smacks him upside the head.
“Who asked you? Nobody hit your fuckin buzzer! Now why you get some shit started between him and his wife, you are rude.” The strangers wife said they had no clue who Nicki was without make up and costumes.
“DAMN!” SB started to laugh, the man spoke again.
“I'm used to it, this is my 3rd one” Safaree shook his head likewise and he looked back at Nicki to see her staring at the people crazy and giggling, when she noticed him looking she stopped giggling.
Before he could say anything Dr. smith walked in and greeted them.
“Hey Ncki and Mr. Samuels”
“You can call me Safaree.”
“Well Safaree it is, and I'm glad to see you join us finally, maybe we can take some of that stress off of her and the baby.” Safaree looked at Nicki with concern in his eyes. He now knew the problem was affecting his child and she lied about being OK.
“Nicki you are really glowing but hurry along I need to see this butterball” the 2 ladies giggled.
Safaree stood up first turning around to see if Nicki needed help. Nicki scooted to the edge of the seat and tried to rock her way up. Safaree chuckled at her trying to get up but she didn’t find it funny.
“Just help me up meany.”
“Alright come on… daddy ready to see his little girl.”
Dr. smith over heard and spoke up
“Oh so you believe it’s a girl?”
“Yes I do!”
“Well lets go see.”
They made it to the examination room and Safaree picked Nicki up with ease and place her on the examination table. The nurse came in and gave Nicki this orange sugary drink that tasted pathetic. She gagged at first while it was going down, but Safaree was right there helping her through it and coaching her until the drink was gone. Inside Nicki was so happy because he should have been coming to the doctor’s with her and being her mental coach. But all that mattered was that he was there now and he was playing his role well.
Dr. Smith walked in on the couple joking…
“OK so lets get everything started but before I start since this is Safaree first time here, do you have any questions for me sir?” Safaree slid stood up and stood next to Nicki.
“Nope lets get started. The faster we move the faster we will know the sex of the baby”
“Chill out hancho!” Nicki said playfully.
“Well OK since there are no questions Nicki you know the drill” Dr. smith checked Nickis breathing
“Breathe in for me Nicki.” Nicki took a deep breath and Safaree did it with her. Nicki
wanted to laugh so hard but she kept her composer.
“OK now breathe out for me Nicki” Dr. Smith looked at her watch as Nicki tried to breathe out but ended up laughing at Safaree because he was doing the technique with her.
“You are so corny.”
“So! I'm trying to help you out” Nicki and Safaree laughed with each other.
“OK Nicki, your breathing is fine now I'm going to need for you to lay back and pull the top of your jeans down and pull your shirt up. I need your measurements, check the babies position and heart beat and ultra sound.”
Safaree helped Nicki lay back on the table and Nicki raised her shirt and pulled her pants down from over her belly exposing her bare Carmel tummy. Safaree remained standing by Nickis side as she did all of this and savored the site, he was almost in shock. After Nicki got settled and ready to start she laid her head back and looked at Safarees face, and to her surprise he met her eyes.
“Wow your big Nick” Safaree rubbed the top of Nickis hand he was held it. Nicki gave him the *wtf* look.
“Well I am almost 5 months pregnant” Nicki rolled her eyes, Safaree stared back at her belly.
“But your big Nick!”
“Oh well that’s great for my self esteem Safaree” Nicki said sarcastically.
“But you still look good Nick” he tried to cover up what he was saying because he saw her getting mad.
“Whatever Safaree shut up” Nicki tried to snatch her hand but Safaree didn’t let it go. He wanted to kiss her so bad but he knew that would be taking it to far. He went to speak again but Dr. Smith cut them off
“Awlrighty then! Onika! This is the husbands first day back and he’s acting up hahaha! But um let me get this belly measurement” Dr. Smith pulled out her measuring tape and measured Nickis belly from two angles. Safaree watched everything intently as Dr. Smith worked and Nicki answered regular questions. Dr. Smith spoke again.
“Well Nicki and Safaree, butterball’s growth is right on track and Nicki is the right weight. Now the hard part comes. Safaree I'm going to need for you to hold Nicki hand because now I have to apply pressure to her abdomen to check the babys position.”
“OK” Safaree said looking at Nicki in her eyes. He saw how scared she was and spoke to her to soothe her.
“It's OK babe I'm here with you” he kissed her for head.
“Okay” Nicki said while looking at him directly. Then she looked back to Dr. Smith
“Okay I'm ready.”
“OK lets go.” Dr. Smith said with excitement.
Dr. Smith moved quickly as she could finding the position of Nicki and Safarees little baby. Dr. Smith repositioned the baby to where it wasn’t sitting on Nickis bladder anymore.
“OK Nicki I repositioned the baby so now you can sleep a little longer, but that little baby is long.” Dr. Smith smiled looking at her belly while reaching to get hand sanitizer.
“I know it, gets it from Safaree long self.” she looked up at him then back at Dr. Smith.
“I see, and um Safaree do you want to sit down? We are moving into the heart beat, I'm going grab my handy dandy baby Doppler so we can hear this strong heart bea.t”
“No I'm OK, I'm want to remain standing.”
“OK its on you.” Dr. Smith said while grabbing her Doppler.
Dr. smith, squeezed the cool jelly on to Nicki’s tummy and placed the Doppler in the gel to find a heart beat. Once she found the heart beat, it was strong and loud. Nicki looked down at her belly then looked up to Safaree to see him watery eyed and smiling from ear to ear. Safaree looked down at Nicki.
“Wow! That our baby.”
“Yeah I know right.”
“Nicki, Safaree the babys heart rate is 180 bpm which is fantastic, I'm so proud of you Nicki for getting your heath in order. This baby will be fine. Are you two ready to meet your boy or girl?”
“Yes I'm ready” Nicki said taking a deep breath then sighing
“Been ready for the past year.” Safaree said rubbing his chest
Dr. smith giggled at the two as they said their comments and went to go get the ultra sound machine. Dr. smith set up everything and spread the gel over Nickis tummy yet again. As she did this Nicki looked back up at her husband who was already paying attention to her.
“I hope you get your girl.” Nicki’s eyes watered.
“I hope I do too, but even if it’s a boy I'm going to love it just the same, I'm glad I'm having this baby with you, this is what I've been waiting for and I know we are going to be great parents together.” Safaree saw the tears slipping from Nicki’s face and wiped her tears then turned to Dr. Smith and nodded his head for her to proceed.
It took 20 minutes for doctor smith to find their child's private parts because the baby
was hiding. But eventually Dr. Smith found what she was searching for… the answer. She smiled and Nicki and Safaree looked at her. Both of their hearts started to flutter as they await what they’ve been wanting to know since they wanted children together…
“OK Onika and Safaree you too have a… Girl.”
“Woooooow I told you.” Safaree threw both of his hands up in a touchdown stance jumping up and down on his toes. Nicki giggled through her tears.
“Thank you so much Dr. Smith.”
“OK Onika continue to take your vitamins and get plenty of rest and eat correctly. We
want this little girl strong as possible. You're on time and a little big, but that’s fine. And let your husband take care of you. Be good you two and congrats on your baby girl.” she walked out the door.
“A girl! My girl.” Nicki said trying to sit up. Safaree helped her up by pulling on both of her arms and pulled her shirt down over her belly.
“Our girl Nicki.” he saw the joy in her face as she sent out a universal text to all friends and family about the baby. She looked up from her phone.
“Yes your girl.” Nicki looked down at her baby bump and rubbed it.
“No our girl Nicki, our girl… remember we made her together. We are a family.” Nicki looked away sniffling really hard because she knew that was a lie. They were separated, him in New York; and her in Florida.
“We aren’t a family Safaree, we aren’t even living with each other.” Nicki scooted to the edge of the table and tried to get down, Safaree put her feet on the floor with ease.
“We are together Nicki, we are a family, we are just going through some things right now. Just say the words and I will be home, I want to be home.” he zeroed in on her eyes and they stared at each other.
“I don’t know if I can get over this Safaree. I'm not only protecting me but her heart too. She doesn't need a daddy in a different place when she wants him right then and there. Its not fair.” Nicki grabbed her purse not wanting to say more and started to walk to the door. Safaree felt guilty and thought about what she said
“Nicki you have to let me come home, we cant work this out if I am in new York.. I need to be here with you, we need to be able to talk this out. We need to keep this face to face. I need to be here” Nicki looked over her shoulder at him.
“I don’t know…” she shook her head holing the bottom of her baby bump
“I need to be in your space and you need to be in mine. When we arguing it needs to not be over the phone but in each others presence where we can see each others raw emotions” Safaree slowly started to walk up
“I cant do it Safaree I'm sorry” Nicki broke down in front of him and walked over to the door.
“All of this pretending stuff is not fucking working” she said through sobs. She leaned against the door with her head on her forearm and one hand on her belly looking down at the floor letting the tears escape.
“Who the fuck is pretending Nicki? I love you, I love my baby, I'm trying to make this work… so can you please tell me whose pretending because it damn sure ain't me” Safaree got angry and raised his voice, he was fed up.
Nicki stood up straight from the door and turned around fuming. He saw the rage in her eyes. She spoke.
“You!!! Is the fuck who is pretending. You acting like that baby is OK. That’s not OK! I'm not OK with that. That bitch is somewhere right now carrying apart of you that I suppose to have! ME! Safaree ME! That baby is a big fucking deal! You tryna make me not care that its coming and that everything will be normal! Well guess the fuck what Safaree IT WONT! You know what, this is not good for me all this arguing and screaming so I'm going to call Jessie and leave, you can catch your private jet back to New York I don’t care. Me and this baby will be fine, I'm good over here! Go take care of your baby momma and son. They need you more anyways. Oh and I will send those papers your way.”
Nicki wiped her tears and fixed her clothes. She cleared her throat and began to open the door. Safaree was heated or you can say beyond heated. He was furious at his wife for what she just said. He couldn’t believe it. He reached over her and pushed the door shut and Nicki turned her head about to yell when he got really close in her face backing her into the door. She breathed hard as they stared at each other eye to eye completely livid at each other. They had never been that mad. Safaree began to speak stern, and his words flowed like hot lava.
“You know what Nicki! You are not being rational. You know damn well I never wanted this, you weren’t the one in the hotel room, you weren’t the one who was basically raped.
And the consequence was you having a baby by a bitch you can give a fuck about. YOU
so fuckin selfish! Have you ever thought to think about how I think about this situation and what I'm going through? I really doubt you have! And what you talkin about divorce papers? Naw! You ain't going no muthafuckin where, that ain't even going down, and what the fuck you mean I ain't going to be there for my daughter? When she wants me imma be there cause imma be at home, with my wife and daughter. That divorce shit you talkin bout ain't going down. Yo ass ain't going no where. You know what I'm not gon talk about this shit here, what we gon do is get in this fuckin car and go HOME! And we are going to finish this conversation there.”
Nicki stood there with her hands folded not budging at all, rolling her eyes and red in the face. Safaree knew he had to take control over his house hold again and if it took him to be mean to Nicki then that’s what he had to do.
“Oh so you don’t hear good? I said LETS GO.” he said loud and sternly.
Safaree reached past her and opened the door.
“I said lets go, get the steppin.”
Nicki twisted around really fast and stormed out. Safaree walked right behind her and everybody was looking at them when they came out. He ignored it and watched Nicki move fast. Nicki and Safaree walked to the car, and Nicki was thinking the whole time while walking. These were her thoughts.
“What the hell? Who does he think he is talking to me like that? Taking control? Me and my little girl will be fine without him and his baggage. Its like I'm mad but I'm happy that he’s here. I don’t know why I hate him but I love him. I just want to love him, I cant even be fully happy about my daughter ugh. Why me lord why me?”
Nicki hurried and took back the question that she asked the lord. She knew to never question Gods doing because her mother taught her and the church and she would tell er daughter the same. Everything happens for a reason and we just have to live with what happens.
She opened the door and got in and tried to lock her seat belt in, but failed again. Safaree took the initiative and reached over her and locked her in. she fixed herself in her seat while her arms remained folded over her belly and looked out the window.
Safaree looked towards her while driving on the highway and spoke but before he could get any words out she spoke.
“Don’t fuckin talk to me, stupid ass nigga, I cant stand you.”
She spat her words at him and began to take her curly hair out of the neat ponytail it was in and ran her fingers through her hair trying to calm herself. She ran her hands down her belly then repeated the gesture once more. Safaree knew this wasn’t good for their child but they needed to talk so he spoke.
“So you gave up? Your done with me well you know what, fuck a damn divorce, I'm going to remain loyal to my wife Onika Tanya Samuels, the one I married. I know she loves me.”
“I hate you.” her words spit like venom in his ear. Safaree gripped the steering wheel and his jaw bone pulsated on the side of his face.
“Why did you make me stay only to tell me you want to divorce me?" His tear ran down his face.
“I wasn’t planning on divorcing you, and I offered you to come to this doctors appointment because I don’t need you, this little girl does, but mommy will take care of her. We will survive” hearing Nicki talk like this hurt Safaree. He thought everything would be fine that day but in reality it wasn’t.
“Shut the fuck up Onika talking like I'm not going to be there, when I am. I refuse to leave like this and leave my family that we just started. I want this , I want her.” Safaree put his right hand on her belly and let it rest there. He felt Nicki breathing hard. Nicki looked down at his strong hand protectively covering their child. She closed her eyes at the site and tears escaped her landing on Safarees hand.
They pulled up to their home. Nicki looked at him with tears built up again ready to spill over her eye lids. She opened the door and got out and went into the house and slammed the door shut.
She slid down the door crying holding her chain with her wedding ring around her neck. She knew she needed him.
Safaree sat in the car in front of the door beating the steering wheel out of anger and allowed himself the cry hard. Instead of holding in his sobs he let them go. His sobs could have made anybody cry if they heard them.
Nicki knew she could trust him, and she knew he wanted their baby. She was scared, frightened, and terrified. But she had to do it for her family, but most importantly herself. Her body longed for Safaree, that was her other half. She didn’t want a divorce, she just wanted to say something to hurt him.
Nicki got the strength to get on her knees and pull the door open. When she pulled the door open she fell on her hands which left her on all fours. She screamed towards Safaree’s car that still set in the drive way.
“Safaree!!!, Safaree!!!” he heard her loud screams through his widows and jumped to the sound of her voice. He turned the car off and hopped out of the Ferrari and ran to the door getting on his knees to get Nicki. He pulled her up off of her arms and placed her on his chest and rubbed her hair.
She saw that he was crying to and admittedly spoke while looking in his eyes.
“Come home! Baby just come, I'm tired… I'm tired of fighting… we need you.”
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