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-February 13^th, Friday

Jessie came over to the house to drop off some cheetos and melted chocolate along with Nicki’s pineapples and peanut butter. Nicki’s cravings had been growing by the day and so was she. The doctor told her at the last visit she had a butter ball and the baby was health and juicy. She still hadn’t found out what the baby was, she was holding out for safaree secretly but she wanted to find out the day after Valentines Day. Nicki’s round baby bump showed proudly under her Minnie Mouse tee shirts as she went to open the door for Jessie. Nicki made 16 weeks making her 4 ½ months pregnant. She was always happy and she tried not to think about the bad, and the fact that she hadn’t spoken to safaree and he knew nothing about his unborn child. Nicki hadn’t even told the barbs yet. She would have her days like today; it was around the “LOVE” holiday… Valentine’s Day and everybody was preparing themselves to have fun and goo out. Nicki mopped around all week but Jessie was going to change that. She was forcing nicki to talk to her husband because she was sick and tired of being sick and tired. Jessie was over Nicki’s stubborn ways and safaree blowing her got damn phone up.

“Hey”

“Hey! Where my food at?” nicki said holding her hand out. Nicki had been sending Jessie on these scavenger hunts for her food for the past month.

“Right here woman dang! You haven’t even looked at me in my face, you just lookin for the bag. Greedy baby!”

“Whatever! Give it here I need those cheetos”

“Huh” Jessie shoved the food into Nicki’s hands and nicki turned and walked from the door opening up her cheetos.

Jessie came inside the door and closed it following behind nicki. From behind she didn’t look pregnant but when she turned around with a tight tee shirt it was obvious she was fat she was just pregnant. Nicki’s hips were fuller, her butt now blended with her thick body, her arms were juicier, her eyes were brighter, hair more shinier, skin more Carmel, nails hard and long without acrylic, and her face chubbier. With every smile her dimples would sink in deep, and made her so cute to watch.

“Damn, this is so good” nicki took a big handful of chips and stuffed it in her mouth.

“Why do you look like this?”

“Look like what jess?” nicki turned around concern

“Like you just don’t care. You got this beautiful hair all over the place. You haven’t been out in a week and you’ve been mopping around like an old lady who can’t get no dick”

“Well I don’t, I have nobody to get cute for. And plus I haven then really feeling good around this holiday, and lately I just don’t like clothes I look weird in them”

“Onika your pregnant! Shut up!”

“Yeah that would be great if everybody else knew that so I can stop hiding in safaree’s hoodies every time I leave this house. Even the barbs are questioning why I keep wearing his shit! Ugh. I’m a big as pig”

“That would be great if you husband knew to but, no you’re not a big pig come here.” Jessie hugged nicki as they flopped down on the couch in the family room.

Nicki shrugged her shoulders

“Come on! Spa day on me. We are getting you outside, since you feel bad and all that. We are going to get manicures and pedicures. Your nails are so strong and beautiful, and you hair has so much life and volume. Just mousse your hair, throw some pants on and one of safaree’s hoodies and come on” nicki stared at Jessie blankly for a second then agreed to come.

“They better not hurt me Jessie you know I swell easily now in days. I don’t need any more swelling than I already have.” Nicki stood up and rubbed her tee shirt downward showing off the baby bump Jessie smiled at the sight but didn’t say a word. Nicki caught her smile and smiled back.

“Trust me they won’t hurt you too ok. Now hurry up, I have an appointment. Don’t forget your shades.”

“Don’t rush me Puerto Rican lady! Beauty takes time”

“Whatever I’m waiting. And martin is outside waiting on us in the car”

“Oh lord! Martin can’t drive”

Nicki laughed hard going up the stairs. When she was done she had on a black YMCMB hoodie of safaree’s and some running Nike’s that were pink and black, some yoga pants, and her hair in the biggest, thickest messy bun Jessie has ever seen, some stud earrings and her infinity necklace safaree bought her for her birthday she never took off.

Once they got in the car they took off to downtown Miami. They went to the 20^th floor of this white building that held the spa. They were greeted with white robes fresh out the warmer which nicki loved and was asked to choose a color to go on their hands and feet. Martin stayed with them but didn’t get anything done. As they were getting their pedicures Jessie bought up the situation of safaree.

“So Nick”

“Yes” nicki had her head back and her eyes closed enjoying the massage from the chair and the pressure on her ankles and feet from the pedicure bowl.

“Um you know safaree has been blowing up my phone and telling me to relay you messages, but I never do because I was scared that you were going to holler at me.”

“No I’m not. I’m chill plus I already know what he’s probably going to say.”

“Anyways, I’m tired of this nicki you need to get over yourself and stop being selfish” nicki shot up and turned her head to Jessie. She was about tired of people calling her selfish. She hates that word and she knew she was far from it.

“I’m not selfish Jessie; you just don’t understand the situation.”

“Oh! I understand it clearly and you know I do”

“Well what makes me so damn selfish? Please let me know before I snatch the next bitch wig who calls me that”

“You’re acting like you’re the only one who is hurt. You’re hurting that baby, and you are hurting safaree. It’s not good for you or the baby to suppress feelings and emotions and you know they resurface. So you might as well try and talk to him.” Jessie’s plan was working. She was emotionally persuading nicki to call safaree and give him a chance.

“But I was the main one that was hurt”

“That doesn’t matter I’m paneled for you to fix” Jessie was cut off by her phone vibrating in her pocket. She sat back to pull the blackberry from out of her tight jeans pocket and looked at the caller ID.

“My point exactly” she showed nicki the phone to show her it was safaree

“Now you are going to talk to him. I don’t give two shits how you feel I’m tired and I know you are too. Shit he is too and the baby so talk to him. I will make you a bet. If this shit don’t work out. FIRE ME if it does work out just be happy and let me continue to work for you.”

“I don’t know jess…” nicki was cut off by Jessie holding up her hand signaling for her to hold on.

“Hello! Hey safaree”

“What’s up?”

“Nothing much, martin drove me and nicki to get our nails done”

“Really how is she? And martin drove? Yall tryna kill her! You know martin can’t drive” safaree laughed

“Shut up and she’s doing great just relaxing” she put him on speaker phone so she could hear his voice for the first time in 4 months

“Awe ok do you think she would want to talk to me?” safaree still didn’t give up. Every day he would call and ask the same question but nicki didn’t believe it until she heard him say it. Nicki looked down at the phone, and her face turned beat red. She didn’t know what to say, but she shook her head no.

“Um… hold on safaree”

“Okay” nicki was shaking her head no as the tears streamed down her face. She had been keeping it together all week but the sound of his voice triggered the tears.

“Nicki, stop crying. I need for you to either speak or agree to meet up with him tomorrow PLEASE” nicki was holding back her sobs looking up and coughed a few times trying not to make noise.

“Look at me ONIKA!” nicki looked at Jessie with tears in her eyes that had yet fallen from her eyelids. Jessie was on a mission and she was winning. She didn’t care; she was smart enough to know that nicki was vulnerable enough to say yes to a date on Valentine’s Day.

“Shake your head yes.” Nicki paused. Looked down and rubbed her baby bump and shook her head yes. Martin almost jumped out of his seat when he saw this and screamed to the top of his lungs, but he semi kept his composer. And Jessie turned red in the face but calmed herself to speak. She had safaree on hold for 5 minutes and 6 seconds.

“Hello?”

“Yeah I’m still hear thanks for the wait. I was going to tell your ass Take Care and hang the hell up” Jessie laughed

“Well what she say?” safaree asked curious keeping the hope that she would change her mind one day.

“Well I have good news and I have bad news.” Jessie looked at nicki and nicki looked up to meet her eyes as she spoke.

“What is it?” safaree’s heart pounded thru his chest so hard. He even broke a light sweat from excitement.

“Well she doesn’t want to talk on the phone”

“Oh well I will call tomorrow”

“you won’t have too, because the good news is she agreed to go out to dinner with you here in Florida so get you black ass here and she wants to talk face to face because she has good news to tell you” Jessie didn’t hear anything but safaree sniffles, so she put him back on speaker phone.

“Jessie is you playing with me” he said thru tears. Nicki cried with him in silence and turned the other way as she heard her husband cry.

“Nope get your ass here”

“I will be there, oh my god thank you Jessie…”

“No problem”

“Where’s martin again? With you all right? I need to make plans, I gotta get my wife back” safaree cried

“Stop crying safaree its going to be ok. This is my job on the line! So I know for a fact everything will work out. I will set up the place and text you in the morning. Be at the place I tell you at 4pm of course nicki will be slightly late.”

“Ok I will be there at 5 am staying at one of the hotels downtown. I’m so excited. This Valentine’s Day is by far the best. A coon back in action, talk to you real soon! BC-1 out” Jessie laughed as he hung up the phone on her.

“Now do you see that nicki, he is a happy man right now, turn your head to me, I don’t care if you’re mad at me. This is going to fix you and him. Yall was broken Barbie and broken Ken.” Nicki turned her head towards Jessie and looked at her under eyed not saying a word.

“You know you love me and you miss that man, now show me a smile” Jessie started to speak baby talk to nicki which made her smirk and she stuck her finger in Nicki’s left dimple. Nicki pushed Jessie away playfully.

“I really don’t like you crazy girl”

“So! I don’t care. Just thank me later” Jessie said cocky

“Mmmhhhhmm…” nicki sat there and let the Chinese lady scrub her feet and massage her legs and feet for 30 minutes. She all of a sudden got nervous

“Jessie I need to call Lauren and day call them please. I’m nervous and I need to let them know what’s going on.”

“Okay. And why are you nervous boss lady?”

“Because I have to tell him about this baby! I don’t know if he is going to hate me, reject the baby, don’t want me anymore, I don’t know. It’s just so much running thru my head right now.” Nicki rubbed her temples.

“Don’t even think like that, you know safaree is not like that. He wanted this child so chill. Come on lets go pick out you something to wear in that huge walk in closet of your. And I saw your new Chanel shoes and red bottom flats… too cute”

“Stay out my closet jess” they laughed.

They finished getting their toes and nails done. Jessie called up the crew and told them the big news. Terrence and day would be flying in first thing in the morning to get her ready. They went back to Nicki’s place and picked her out a really pretty Navy blue loose fitting dress that hung over her perfectly not exposing anything. She had gold accessories and YSL heels too. She was ready for this day, well as ready as she was going to be. It was coming and she couldn’t stop it.

-

*10 am next morning…

Nicki turns to her other side and felt the urge to pee.

“This baby won’t let up on my bladder” nicki rubbing her now visible 4 ½ month baby bump. Nicki stood up and stretched towards the ceiling exposing her tummy to the sun light that was shining in.

“Ugh I feel so heavy”

She heard knocking on the door, she stop stretching and pulled her tank top down and put on her purple cotton shorts and walked to the door. She opened the door to see it was only Jessie. After she saw it was her she ran straight for the bathroom to pee. Jessie e walked to the bathroom door

“Boss lady I set up the date at this Latin winery”

“Jess I can’t drink”

“I know boss lady it’s obvious” Jessie snickered

“Then why a damn winery jess?” nicki flushed the toilet. And Jessie heard the sink run.

“Just trust me it’s going to be nice, your husband will meet you there at 4pm, and you two are in a reserved section” nicki came out the bathroom fixing her messy curly hair

“Ok, I’m just nervous, it’s been 4 months and I’ve been scared all night about the way he will react. If he’s mad, sad, or what if he’s just happy?”

“I’m sure he will be honey” Jessie said giving nicki a hug

“He’s going to be surprised boss lady you already know” Jessie slightly rubbed Nicki’s baby bump as she looked towards the closet.

“I’m just scared period but I’m still mad at him. I don’t want to get to mad when we talk because you know I will leave”

“Then don’t get mad, think about that little boy or girl you’re carrying, and you know safaree is going to want to be a part of this.”

“I know for a fact he do” she said confidently going into the closet picking up her dress and shoes.

“Pick me out the perfect gold accessories”

“Okay and how do you know that for sure hb?”

“There you go into TM mode again, but 1^st he is my husband, 2^nd he asked me for the baby, 3^rd he has wanted to be a dad for years.”

Jessie walked over with her accessories. Terrence and day knocked on the door and Jessie let them in and she left out. Nicki walked over to the window and said a small prayer in her mind looking out at the ocean.

“Dear god, I come to you as humble as I know how. I want to say thank you for my beautiful life. I’m comfortable, and I want to say thank you for my baby. I didn’t know you would send me my bundle of joy so easily after one try. So I thank you lord, but I also want to thank you for my husband, even though he sinned I want to pray for him. I want to ask you that tonight goes smoothly, lord he asked for our baby and he should be blessed with it. I’m just scared how to tell him. If I can’t get it out my mouth lord, just work your magic for him to figure it out… amen”

Day walked in first, she saw nicki at the window in tears looking at the bright sun with her hand that held her wedding ring on her belly. She twirled her ring with her thumb.

“What’s wrong now baby?” day asked concerned. She turned the Barbie around and held her as she cried.

“Hunny all of this crying is not good for the baby and you know that. You have cried everyday this whole pregnancy. I’m so happy that today has come because safaree is depressed and you’re depressed, pregnant and hormonal. You need your husband so I’m glad yall finna work things out. He hasn’t seen you in 4 months. Even your barbs know something aint right, and you aint told them nothing about the pregnancy. I do want you to announce it with him so cheer up baby. It’s time to get your husband back. Forgive and forget. Yes he may have another baby on the way, but who do you think which belly he wants to talk to every night and kiss? His wife!”

Nicki wiped her face and laughed thru her last tears.

“You are right day, day!”

“Ok, Mrs. Samuels”

Terrence came thru the door with two black leather suitcases that was filled with Nicki’s wigs and his supplies.

“Hey hunny, hi baby” Terrence said hugging nicki and bending down to her belly

“You ready to get did up Barbie? Wait why are you crying? What did I tell you about that?”

“I know, I know, day just got on me” Jessie came back to the room door

“Ok boss lady, I will be in the movie room until 3:30 pm so we can make our way over. I texted safaree the address and all that stuff so we are set. I will call Lawrence to bring the car around at 3:15pm and I and martin will ride over with you. Get cute hunny see you in a bit” Jessie walked out and Terrence and day laughed

“That girl is something” day said

“Yes she is” Terrence said

“Get in the tub” day told nicki as they set up.

When she came out of the shower, nicki put on her dress and accessories. Terrence and day did their jobs and nicki wore her natural hair out for the first time going out anywhere where she knew paparazzi would be. She wore it in a fish braided bun. And day kept her makeup basic and neutral, nicki glowed, her skin shinned and her hair shinned without oil.

“You is beat Hun” day said smiling

“Thank you”

Day rubbed shimmer on Nicki’s exposed arms and took in the sight of the glowing Barbie. Terrence spoke

“I think sb is going to attack you”

“Why” nicki giggled

“Because you’re beyond beautiful, he is going to want to touch this fuller face Barbie. Those cheeks & hips are to die for” nicki blushed

“Call Jessie up here so she can do her fashionista talk on me. She’s going to beat me up for wearing these YSL heels but imma take the flats with me.”

“still that’s putting the baby in danger and do you think if safaree saw those heels and knew about your bun in the oven, that he would let you wear them?” Terrence asked

“Nope”

“Okay then, sense he don’t know about the bun yet imma chill so you can play it off” Terrence said with a stern face

“Jessie come here”

Jessie ran up the stairs dizzy because she had just waked up in the movie theater. It was now 3:05pm

“What’s up” Jessie yawn

“You being sleep I see and I couldn’t even take my nap today”

“I’m sorry boss lady but that king Kong movie long as hell”

“True” nicki said

“But you look beautiful, I’m sure sb is going to melt”

“He still not getting a hug! Not until after we talk things out and I tell him about the baby”

“I wish I was a fly on the wall to see his face” they laughed

“Wait is those YSL heels missy! Hell naw! They cute for after the pregnancy but not right now”

“Jess look I packed flats imma take them right off”

“Mmmmhhhhmmm... sb told me to watch you and that’s exactly what im doing and if he was here he would have told your butt no” the group laughed at what Jessie just said

“Terrence just said that”

Jessie walked to the dresser and uncapped Nicki’s Chanel perfume.

“Spin around”

Nicki spun around slowly one good time as Jessie sprayed her. She sneezed which made her belly hurt.

“Ouch!!! Pass me some tissue”

“What’s wrong”’ day got up

“When I sneezed it sent pains thru this area”

“Come here nick” day rubbed her baby bump and nicki cleaned her face.

“Don’t give your mommy a hard time” nicki giggled at day. Nicki kissed day and Terrence on the cheek.

“Good luck Barbie” Terrence said cheesing ear to ear

“Thank you T! I sure need it”

“Let’s get this family back together! Yes! Praise god!” day said looking up at the ceiling

“Shut up! But I love yall” she hugged day

“Love you more” they said together

“Jessie could you help me with my shoes?”

“Yes, sit!”

Jessie hurried and strapped nicki shoes because now they were a minute of schedule. She helped nicki to her feet and down the stairs. Of course the paparazzi were outside of her gates so nicki posed in a way that they couldn’t distinguish her baby bump and got me the truck.

-

Nicki got out of the truck and hugged Jessie and posed for the cameras that were in her face with her Chanel shades on. Nicki walked into the quiet restaurant greeted by a Latin man with a strong accent.

“Right this way, Mrs. Samuels”

The Latin man showed nicki to the back of the restaurant, into a gated area where it was grape vines and old wine bottles in racks with labels and dates. The light given was dim which made her jewelry and skin sparkle and illuminate.

“Here you go maam”

“Thank you” she smiled at him.

When she looked towards safaree, he was fixing his clothes and putting his diamond in crested iphone 7 in his pocket. He had lost a lot of weight a lot of muscle. They locked eyes thru her semi dark shades and his eyes were lost in hers. He wanted to cry he missed her so bad. He looked over her whole body not catching her baby bump but recognizing the fullness of her hips, legs, arms and face. He stood where he was sitting to greet nicki.

“You look stunning” nicki took off her shades.

“Thank you, you don’t look to bad yourself I see you been working out much!” they chuckled a little. He missed seeing her smile

“Yeah, lil bit lil bit” rubbing his arms smirking

“So how have you been?”

“I’ve been doing good, making appearance and having a lot of photo shoots that’s all. The usual” nick sat her purse on the right side and stuck her glasses in the purse. She made herself comfortable. Safaree watched her the whole time very intently, being that he hadn’t seen her in so long. He couldn’t stop staring.

“Well that’s good to hear…”

“Well how have you been?”

“I’ve been miserable without you; these past 4 months have been the worst months of my life. Not seeing your face, not being able to hold you and touch you, this was a real test of my will power to stay away. I knew I had to stay away to give you your space but it was hard fighting the urge to just come back in our home and demand my stay.” She saw the desperateness in his face and she missed him too, but she would not let him know that.

“Well you put that on yourself safaree”

“I know that Onika” he tried to grab Nicki’s hand that held her wedding band. She moved it away and looked down in her lap at her baby bump.

“Out of all things you hurt me, and you lied to me.” Nicki felt the tears coming

“I know I hurt you, I know you think I lied to you and so I’m sorry for that, I love you and I just want to get past this.” Safaree put his hand back under the table looking at her.

“Think? I know you lied to me. You wanna why? Because you told me you were going to drink heavy anymore and you did and you fucked up. Damn Vaks always pushing you to do dumb shit, even without talking. I’m just hurt safaree, my heart can’t take this”

“I’m sorry you feel that, that wasn’t my intent, I wasn’t trying to make you feel that way, and for all your hurt ad pain I’m sorry. If you love me I will spend a lifetime trying to make it up to you.”

Nicki sat there quiet pondering on the next question if she should ask or not. She heard form Candi every 2 weeks or so what Monica and safaree were doing.

“So how is her and her baby?”

“Who?” safaree said looking confused

“Monica?”

“Oh, we went to the doctor the other day, and he’s healthy, and he’s right on schedule”

“Oh so it’s a boy, I’m taking?” nicki said taking a sip of the water that was already on the table.

“Yeah” sb smiles at the thought of having a son

“Oh so your happy?”

“Well, nicki I have a son, I’m not going to pretend like I’m not happy with my son, and I’m not happy with the circumstances he came from, but I won’t deny him my love because it’s not his fault. I can’t take back my past and learn from my mistakes and move on. I hope my future has you in it.” He looked straight at her then looked down when he saw the hurt in her eyes.

“But how do you know that he’s yours” nicki got nervous and drunk another swallow of water

“Until I find out that he’s not, I’m not going to deny him. I want to take responsibility” safaree said in a concerned way

“Responsibility? When were you responsible in New York? Why couldn’t you be response when you were away from me? I don’t want to hear that responsible shit!” nicki was now heated.

“Nicki you know what I’m talkin about when I say responsibility, now I might not have been responsible when I was in New York, but my situation has change, I had to grow up, and I have another life to think about and raise.” Safaree kept calm

“You got that right! I’m glad to see you mature” nicki said rolling her eyes and folding her arms talking sarcastically

“Yes I’ve matured, why haven’t you? Why are you giving me so much attitude?”

“What the fuck do you mean attitude? Safaree! You got another girl pregnant and you’re married. How am I supposed to act? What if I went out and got pregnant by some nigga? Some random nigga at that? Are you telling me that you wouldn’t be acting like I’m acting right now? You don’t even know the half. And baby I matured so much, because old nicki would have been across this muthafuckin table with that dumb as question you just asked. It’s taking every fiber in my being to sit here, because I didn’t want to be here. I’m doing this for you”

“See you’re doing exactly what I said you would do. What I was scared of. You became cold hearted towards me and you don’t want to let me back in. so I don’t want to talk about it anymore. Can we just put this past us and move on. I wanted to explain myself but I see explaining it again will only make matters worse. You don’t want to listen to me so there is no point in explaining myself because you are going to hear what you want to hear” safaree was leaned over the table almost in Nicki’s face

“So now you don’t want to talk about it?”

“You don’t listen that’s your problem you’re stubborn” safaree threw his hands up

“No! My problem is I have a lying ass bastard for a husband, who don’t know how to keep his fuckin hormones in check when he with his boys. See this why I stayed away, because I hate you but I love you, you disgust me when I look at you, but I can’t stop loving you and that hurts me.” Nicki’s eyes burned from her tears but she refused to let them escape.

“So you’re telling me that you hate me that much too where your hate outweighs the love you have for me? So you’re telling me that this situation that I was completely out of it made you hate me this much to the point that you don’t want to try. That’s what I’m getting from you, that you don’t want to try. So you’re telling me the 12 years of love that you have for me are gone. So you telling that you can’t find not one memory that we shared together in the past 12 years that will even make you consider loving me and again and moving past this. Yes I know I messed up, but you know I love you, you know I never meant for this to happen. If I could take this back I would. I know I let you down, but I’m only human.” Safaree shook his head while rubbing it

Nicki thought to herself that she really doesn’t hate him anymore. I just want him to hurt like I did, just because he didn’t mean it doesn’t mean that it’s not tearing me apart. She gave in and tears fell.

“I can’t do this safaree, I just can’t… I have to go” nicki started to change her shoes into her flats. She stuck her heels in her big blue marc Jacobs’s bag and scooted to the right to left to get out of the booth.

“You can’t or you won’t” she stopped in her tracks and looked at him before she got up

“I don’t know at this point, I came here in the mind state to listen to you and hear you out and catch up. But I see I haven’t let go of some things yet. I have forgiven you because truly I don’t hate you. I just wanted you to hurt like you hurt me, but I see that can’t work.” She gripped her purse tight

“Nicki this is our last chance, if you walk out that door without us having an understanding, you know our marriage will only go downhill from here. Because YOU know if you leave you’re not going to want to talk to me yet alone see me again so I’m asking you as your husband to sit down and talk to me. Just talk to me… don’t have an attitude with me… don’t yell at me… just talk and let it all out. Or are you past the point of talking. Can you just have a civilized conversation with your husband?” safaree had a plea in his eyes

Nicki texts martin and tells him to pull the car around but it might be a little while she just wants him there. Just in case.

“I’m sorry safaree… I don’t think I can. Yes I love you, I do! But I’m hurt! It hurt so badly. I know you didn’t mean any of it but my heart is obliterated, and I don’t want you climbing mountains to try and get back to my heart. Because you shouldn’t have to, you’re my husband. But it’s something in me that I have to fix, and there is something I’m protecting that’s blocking you out. So before we can move forward, I have to sort something out in me. Because I have trust issues and you know this. I have to go.” She was so uncomfortable. She stood up.

“No nicki just stay and talk to me, don’t leave me here”

“No safaree I need to go” she yelled looking down at him red in the face

“Doesn’t look like you need too, it’s looking more of like you want to leave me.” Safaree said with a slight attitude

“Don’t do this to me safaree” nicki begged

“I’m not doing anything, I’m trying to fight for my marriage and fight for our love” nicki made an attempt to walk away, but safaree grabbed her hand. So nicki looked back at him, Safaree looked down and she saw the one tear trickle down his cheek.

“Safaree stop don’t do this, stop crying”

“So I can’t show my emotions? And you can? This is how I feel” safaree was snow sniffling up his tears

“Safaree please I can’t, I just have to go, just let go of me” she tried to get away but he didn’t allow her. But sooner or later he let her wrist go

“Letting go is like letting you walk out of my life.” She started to walk away once more but out of instinct he grabs her by her waist. Everything in her mind stop.

“Now wait…” he cut himself off when he felt Nicki’s firm belly in his hands. At least that what he thought.

“Safaree, no wait! Don’t grab me right there… no” she grabbed his arm and tried to pry him away.

“Wait... nicki what is this?” safaree stood there dumb founded

“Don’t worry about it…” nicki said nonchalant

“What do you mean don’t worry about it, what this feels to me is that your pregnant!” safaree said in a high pitched voice almost yelling

“Ugh! If you know what it is what you ask for? That was a dumb question safaree”

Nicki started to joke because she knew now the tables had turned and she knew she was in the wrong. So she wanted to joke her way thru it. She knew it wasn’t going to get her far but she did it anyways.

“Nicki it’s not time for jokes right now!”

“Who said I was joking? Just let me go!” she said with a smirk on her face

“So you playing?” safaree asked with a serious tone

“Yep sure! I’m not 4 and half months pregnant” she said sarcastically

“Nicki your 4 ½ months pregnant and you didn’t tell me!” he screamed

“Well I didn’t think it was a big deal, you know you were over there living your other life with your precious little baby boy, I didn’t think you would care about this baby” nicki shoulder shrugged

“Onika Tanya Muthafuckin Maraj Samuels”

“Who government you think you call sir” she kept playing with his emotions

“My wife! I am at the highest pisstivity right now”

“Oh so your mad? Like I was 4 months ago? Are you that mad? On a scale 1-10 how mad are you? Remember when I said I wanted to make you just as mad but I knew it wasn’t gonna work… well this is it”

“DON’T PLAY WITH ME!”

“Sorry guy” she said trying to sound like him

“You set at that table for however long and didn’t tell me? And you were gonna leave without telling me?”

“See what had happen was?” nicki said in madea voice

“Naw see you still think this is a joke”

“See this is what I had to tell you”

“Naw why didn’t you tell me when you found out?”

“Because I was going to tell you”

“When?”

“The day I found out about Monica”

“Oh” he got quiet

“No, that’s still not a good enough reason to NOT tell me in 4 ½ months.” He said still mad

“Well you wouldn’t want to tell somebody good news after they just gave you tragic news!”

She knew he was he was worked up. He pulled her lower half toward him pushing her tummy against his abs; he could feel her firm belly. She leaned away looking up at him as he held her lower back, calming him down subconsciously by rubbing his fore arms. She forgot about everything that went down 10 minutes before.

“Nicki I would have been there, I would have been there! Just to make sure you were ok.”

She looked away.

“I know, I know! I just didn’t think that you would want it. I was scared safaree this is new to me. I didn’t know where we stood in our relationship and I was scared, and I was hurt.”

“What do you take me for nicki!” he yelled looking down at her

“Calm down” she took one hand from his fore arm and pressed him against his chest to signal him to calm down.

“I’m not going to be able to keep talking to you this close if you’re going to be yelling it’s not good for me”

“I know. Your blood pressure will rise so I’m going to stop”

“Why do you know that safaree?” nicki gave him a questioning look

“Why are you questioning me why I know?”

“Well damn! You just know then” she rolls her eyes

“You never answered my question, what do you take me for?”

“I don’t take you as anything safaree” she got really low an looked down

“You think that I would deny my child? After I ask for it?” nicki looked down in guilt

“I’m sorry, it was stupid for me to think that, but that’s just the way I felt at the time. Seeing you talk about your other baby, lets me know that you will love my baby just as much.”

“No our baby” he corrected her

“Yeah… that… you know what safaree I gotta go”

“Why were talking… were talking”

“Safaree I can’t because thinking about and anything that has to do with her pisses me off”

“Well were not talking about her were talking about us.”

“You still don’t get it, she’s apart of our marriage now, you brought somebody else into our marriage. That baby is her!”

“But her, herself has nothing to do with us. It’s still me and you. Yes I have a son but we can’t change that now”

“I know we can’t change it, and I accept that but I’m still pissed. So I need to leave.”

“But wait I want to know more about the baby”

“What do you want to know?”

“Do you know what it is?”

“No”

“Well is it on schedule? You know is it healthy? Is everything okay?”

“Slow down safaree. Yes everything is ok. The heartbeat is fine, I’m on schedule, I’m the right weight everything is fine”

“Well can I see it?”

“See what?”

“Your belly?”

“You wanna see what?”

“Your belly”

“Safaree I have on a dress and were in a public restaurant” safaree looked confused as to why she is questioning him.

“So! Cant nobody see you”

“No safaree”

“Nicki please”

She sighed hard. Nicki looked over her shoulders then looked back at safaree with the facial expression of “I can believe you are talking me into doing something dumb” but she owe him this. So she did it quickly. She raises her dress up and she showed him her tummy. Safaree’s was hesitant about touching her.

“Can I …” nicki grabs his hand and pulls it to her stomach.

“You don’t have to ask just touch it… it’s your baby too” she grabbed his hand and looked at him as he touched her tummy.

It was warm to the touch and softer than normal. She was glowing and she was beautiful to him. And that was everything he wanted in the palm of his hand.

“Omg our baby is in here”

“I know it crazy”

“Yeah”

He looked at her in the face, but she looked away being stubborn because she was still a little upset. She was uncomfortable now, and she just wanted to leave.

“I have to go; I’ve had martin waiting too long”

“Do you really?”

“Yeah martin out there”

“I guess… well can you promise me you will call me?”

“I can’t make any promises… but I will try”

“But since you said you would try can I have the new number”

“So you think you slick?”

“Naw but you said…so you know I don’t know your number and all that…” he said jokingly.

She pulled out her phone and called him so he could lock her number in his phone and she heard her ring tone. To her surprise it was pretty Wings by Maxwell. She bit her lip trying not to smile but her dimples showed anyways and safaree caught a glimpse.

“I love your dimples”

“Thank you… so were good”

“I don’t know you tell me”

“You know what I mean safaree”

“Yeah we good”

She fixed her dressed over her baby bump making sure it wasn’t showing. Safaree watched her fixed herself and admired her new round figure, it was everything to him. She rubbed down her tummy one last time making the dress tight looking down to check her feet making sure her shoes was ok. Safaree wanted to touch her again but he knew she was ready to go. So she turned around and waved at him while sliding her Chanel glasses on her face. Walking out the front of the restaurant where Jessie met her.

Nicki and Jessie walked to the car and safaree was right behind nicki leaving out the restaurant. Nicki struggled to get in the high sitting navigator as Jessie was walking to the other side of the truck.

“Jessie comes help me hahahaha!”

Before Jessie had got to her, safaree had spotted her struggling to get into the car and ran over. He lifted her into the truck and placed her down gently. He reached over her baby bump with the seat beat in hand and locked her in.

“Oh thanks…”

“Your welcome… and don’t wear heels anymore” she side eyed him

“Why?”

“Because you’re clumsy”

“Mmmhhmmm… I will think about”

“Nicki I’m serious…”

“Yeah... I will think about it.”

“Mmmmhhhm… you heard what I said” he told her in her ear. Then he gave her a kiss on the cheek. She adjusted herself like nothing happened then he closed the door. And walked to his car. Jessie asked nicki how it goes and she told her every detail. She called day and Terrence and told them too. She showed her excitement to only them, because she know they made a step forward and she was relieved that he knew.

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Safaree made it to his car and sat there for a second processing the fact that him and nicki are about to be parents. He never wanted to let her go. He just wanted to squeeze her and kiss her and rub her all day. But he knew they had to take baby steps in order to take big steps. He was happy that they took a leap of faith today even though she wasn’t having it. As he danced around in his thoughts and thanked jah for helping him and blessing him with the blessing he asked for, his phone buzzed.

It was a tweet from nicki…. She hadn’t tweeted in a week or so. He still got her tweets sent to his phone and she still got his sent to hers even though they didn’t follow each other. It was a new thing on twitter.

@NICKIMINAJ We loves you more than you will ever know, ONIKAFAREE! Muah! J

The barbs blew her timeline up thinking it was from both of them, but in reality she was speaking about her and the baby. She couldn’t be mad at him no more; she missed him and loved him too much. Safaree saw the tweet and smiled ear to ear and tweeted back.

@SCAFFBEEZY From concrete life grew…

*Now yall can scream and yell and shout and dance because they have taken a step and it only gets better from here. I hate this bitch Monica from the writer’s point of view. But overall they were cute in a way, and I’m glad nicki went thru with the plan. Love yall Comment LOVE @TrebbleBarbie*